Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Mary Catherine's LiveJournal:

Friday, August 17th, 2001
6:49 pm	Hello Bob: OMG I havent written in soo long.... I called in sick to work today b/c I just didnt feel like going. Omg nobodys home know I think i should have went to work. Anwhoo.... Tonight I'm supposed to go to thsi party but I dotn knwo if I want to go but Ill probley go anyway. Bruce ( My BF) is going to be there and I havent seen him in a week b/c he was on vacation and I kinda like being independent without the Bf on my side. SO I dont know if I want to go see him. I might call Alicia instead and see whats shes up too.I haven't seen her in soo long. I got to borrow nicoles Getta the other day and she says i can probley borrow it thsi weekend.. Im soo happy I love her car. I didnt get to pay for school today so I have to go at 8am on monday to pay yuk!!! i joined Colonie EMS and on wenesday I get to ride in the ambulance I'm soo excited. Maybe I'll see sean he is such a HOTTIE!! I luv him lol. He's My new "Friend" hee lol Not yet but hopefully soon. WEll I gtg Late <3 Mary <3 Current Mood: bored Current Music: I'm real By jarule and J lo (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 7th, 2001
3:37 am	My New Job Bob: I started my new Job @ hannaford this week its great I work W/ so many of my friends. I'm starting to turn my life around it great.. I'm smoking again thats the bad thing :(. Oh well now that I'm smoking again I dont really care about hings or ppl who make me upset now I don't even care. I have decided to start going to a new church b/c I feel that God doesn't want me going ther b/c I always seem to have problems with a particular person there and I need to get him out of my life. I also dont feel really welcomed there and I dont have a lot of friends there like I used to and certain ppl dont like me but its there loss not mine :). I'm moving out on myown now and Im thinking either oct or nov deff before x-mas. I'm moving on with my life and getting certain ppl who hold meback out of my life.I'm soo proud ofmy self I just hope I can stick with it this time. All 4 know...... Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 27th, 2001
10:22 pm	TIM Bob: Again sorry for not writing in a while. Okay it hasnt been that long.. Anyway.. I went to cal tim today but he wasn't home so I left him a message. I was so nervous about calling him b/c I haven't talked to him in a while. Anyway.. Last time I wrote I said how I was all depresed and stuff but I totally prayed about it and at 1st I didnt understand but know I do:). I just got off the phone w/ my grl alicia she called and did the one ring signal at 1st I thought it was someone else then I found out it was her so it was all good. We are going to get makeovers on friday i'm so excited I just hope we dont look bad after. KrnCul4Me: CAUSE I LOVE YOU... hee look what Bryan SAid to me lol I love that Kid.. Okay i dont get it all these guys are in love with me and I dont love them back I feel bad but I just dont love them. Like tim is in love with me and crap I like tim but I dont know if I like him as much as he likes me...I have been on the other end where i loved a guy and he didnt love me and it hurts. So I have decided I dont want to have a realtionship with anyone until God tells me its ok and I feel great knowing that im not putting up with some guys crap like all my friends are. All 4 now..... Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Friday, June 22nd, 2001
11:31 pm	Bob: Sorry I haven't written in a while been busy...RT now my life sucks as always I thought my life was finally turning around but its alwats good for a while and then it all comes crashing down. TO make a long story short I started going to youth group again and God totally changed my life and took all the bad things from my past away and forgave me. Everything was goign great i was enjoying life and making new friends and keeping very busy. So anyways as what happens when I usually start goign to youth group I let a certain someone back in my life who always hurts me. This time I thought it would be different but as always im the one who gets burned. I dont know what it is about me but somehow I temp this person b/c of things we did in the past. Thats fine its his prob not mine. Its hurts em that I cant hang otueith with thsi guys b/c as everone pretty much knows I have been in love with him since I was 15 and its goign to hurt me to go to youth group and see hm and know that I can't have him b/c we wil probley never date again. So I decided Im not goign to go to youth group b/c of that and b/c there are certain ppl there that I can't stand, so anyway i told someone who has a big mouth that I dotn like this grl and now hes goign to tell her and were probley goign to have a " talk about it" ok whatever I dont want to have a talk about anything. I've decided I dont want to have anything to do with them anymore especilly that one guy who hurt me. But what really sucks and pisses me off is that I cant hang out with my friends who i met through him b/c he is friends with them too. Soo rt know i hate my life soo much I just want to die, i'm just soo sick of always getting hurt... Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 7th, 2001
9:28 pm	Today...... Bob: I signed up for summer classes today and I picked my classes for next fall :) . I'm taking tough classes in the fall b/c i need them to get inthe program that I want to go into. I'm not sure if I want to do nursing or x-ray tech. I found out that Hvcc has Rotc :) I am extremely happy about that. Now i just have to pray that I can get in. I have to take my SAT's b/c I never took them in HS I hope I do good, i did good on the psats in HS but that was 2 yrs ago that i took them. It was soo nice out today so I layed out in the sun and got mad color. I'm exciting about the fall especailly if I can do ROTC that would be soo hot. I have never been this excited about school I have never been excitined really about everything but now I am its probley b/c I'm starting to Love who I am and I wnat to do somethign with my life and I fianlly realized that no one elses option but mine counts about my futre so Im not goign to let ppl bring me down. I have been down before and the only palce u can go from there is up hee:). I went and applyed for another job today I hope I get it b/c I need another Job soo bad. Well thats all 4 now Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 6th, 2001
12:14 am	ROTC BOb: I decided today that I want to Join Rotc but I dont now if I can do it through Hvcc so I'll have to look in to that when I go register for classes on thursday... I hope I cna do it I really want to b/c when i graduate in 4 yrs I will be a leutient and can go rt into active duty. Ill still ahve to do basic trainign and stuff but it will be worth it all 4 now... Current Mood: ecstatic (Comment on this)
Monday, June 4th, 2001
10:16 pm	MY Day Dear Bob: today nicole woke me up @ 1000 and asked me to go to dunkin donuts, I also woke up and found out I had no voice :( so I sound like a retard when I talk now hee lol. After I got home from dunkin donuts with nicoel I fell back asleep b/c i was still tired and my throat hurt soo bad and I felt like crap so I slept most of the day. When i got up my mom made me tea hee I have the best mom.. THen i went to the gym with my dad and tanning. I'm soo sour now so im going to bed.... All 4 know Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
9:58 pm	MY Day Dear Bob: today nicole woke me up @ 1000 and asked me to go to dunkin donuts, I also woke up and found out I had no voice :( so I sound like a retard when I talk now hee lol. After I got home from dunkin donuts with nicoel I fell back asleep b/c i was still tired and my throat hurt soo bad and I felt like crap so I slept most of the day. When i got up my mom made me tea hee I have the best mom.. THen i went to the gym with my dad and tanning. I'm soo sour now so im going to bed.... All 4 know Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 3rd, 2001
9:14 pm	bOb: OPPS BY ACCIDENT MY LAST ENTREE SAID GLOOMY I'M NOT GLOOMY I MENT TO SAY GOOD.. I HAVENT BEEN GLOOMY IN A WHILE THANK GOD HEE LOL (1 Comment |Comment on this)
9:09 pm	my 1st entrie Dear Bob: Thats your name bob hee lol.... Today I had to Work 7 and half hors YUK!!! i was only supposed to work 7 but of course those retards that I work with always find somehtign to keep me for. I need to get another job b/c they don't give me enough hrs @ freidly's and I dont want to ask for more hrs ther b/c anymore hrs there and Ill scream those ppl drive me crazzy, but I dont want to quit b/c I always quite my jobs and I want to prove to myself and others that i can stick with it.... I'm turnign ym life around and i'm not going to be a " loser" anymore( well according to paco I am am hee lol) Ahh omg my sista isi such a pain she wont tape sex in the city on Hbo for me b/c Kara asked me to tape it and I dont know how to tape things so Kara if it doesnt come out right i'm sorry.... ANyway..... I went and saw Pearl Harbor today with my family It was soo good but the end was Sad...Danny died :( hee My throut is so scratchy and I cant stop caughing yuk!!!! its probally b/c i quit smoking ahh its soo hard though. today when I woke up i wanted to kill someone hee lol so i had a cigarette :( my bad..... I think im going to have to get the patch hee lol.. IM THINKING ABOUT ABOUT JOINIGN THE ARMY AGAIN BUT KNOWING ME ILL CHANGE MY MIND IN A WEEK HEE LOL WHO KNOWS HOPEFULLY ONE DAY I'LL CHOOSE WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE well Bob i gtg my mom is going to help me clean my room ALL 4 NOW..... Current Mood: good Current Music: RESPECT BY ARETHA FRANKLIN ( HEE LOL I LOVE HTAT SONG) (2 Comments |Comment on this)